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Friday, July 15, 2011

Are you WILLING

I wrote this in my journal exactly 5 years ago ::

"I think now more than ever I'm ready to do God's good work. I'm so stuck in a rut, a pattern of nothingness. Something needs to change. I still have so many struggles, but I believe I'm getting a glimpse - a taste of my purpose. I want to live for God. I am not satisfied with anything. I now realize my job will never make me happy, make me full. It is only a platform to do God's good work. I'm scared and I'm lazy, but God give me the strength to pray for strength, if that makes any sense. I feel this in my heart - it's coming. I need faith. I need hope....I'm nearly 31, I don't want to waste anymore time.

I'm so bored. My life is so empty, it's stale, very, very stale. My life is lifeless, uneventful and not fulfilled. There's so much that needs to be done is this world. God give me the strength. I need more, not just strength, but more love, more willingness to help, give, teach, inspire, lead. This world is wrapping up! God get me in the good fight! I'm sick of the routine! I'm sick of the normal, it's killing me. Break the chains God!"

At that point in my life I was living in Little Rock, Arkansas working as a television news reporter for the local ABC affiliate. 

I can't believe it's been FIVE years! If someone would have told me what I'd be doing today - just 5 years later - I would have LAUGHED IN THEIR FACE!

The last half-decade has been the most transformational period of time for me - EVER! I've traveled around the world twice, moved up to Michigan, got married to an amazing woman, together we started our own organization, and most recently we lived in Thailand. 

All of these life-changing and incredible events happened because I was WILLING. I was willing to say YES to God even when that made absolutely NO SENSE! Oh, and just so there is no confusion - this is NOT about me. It's about what GOD can do when we have a YES in our spirit - when we are WILLING!

I'm more than grateful for that YES in my spirit. Because of it, I have an amazing wife. My life is much more rich and full than it was before Ericka. 

Because WE (Ericka and I) said YES, God has used our obedience to bless HUNDREDS out in the nations. Last year was hard as hell, but we believed God called us to start our own organization - The Sound of Hope. We had NO MONEY, plus we didn't have the first idea about how to run a non-profit, BUT we were WILLING. We were WILLING to be obedient - no matter the cost.

Now, a year later, we're seeing momentum build! I am convinced more than ever God will bless THOUSANDS and impact many nations through The Sound of Hope.

It's amazing what can happen when you're willing to say YES! Yes, to unknown possibilities. YES, to promises you aren't quite sure are real. YES, to HIM - whatever that may look like.

Again, I write this not to glorify ME, but to encourage YOU to follow your God-given dreams! If you feel like He is calling you out of your comfort zone into something that makes no sense - go for it!

HE is faithful - I'm living proof.

3 comments:

  1. I love this! I'm glad you wrote this to share with others...oh how far you've come. How far we've come! It's been a wild and crazy ride these past few years, but I wouldn't want to live this (difficult, insane, exciting) life with anyone else! I'm thankful to have a husband who will say YES with me - no matter the risk. Thanks for jumping off that cliff into the unknown 5 years ago and saying YES to whatever future God had for you. He led us to each other out of that obedience, and my life wouldn't be the same without you! Here's to 80 more years of saying YES and seeing what God will do! I love you! xoxo

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  2. Rusty,
    Thank you for posting this today! I am sitting here in tears as I read. God spoke through you just now. When we come up to, what seem to be, road blocks in our "God-given dream" of adoption, I can so easily be frustrated. But you're right, God is faithful!
    ~Candice Stoves

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  3. Beautiful. May your good work and faith continue to inspire others on your amazing journey. May peace be with you both!
    Nickie S

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